Day 28: Reset

I didn't do any blogging over the weekend because I really couldn't put into words what I was thinking.  That says a lot coming from me. I usually can always think if somethnig to say.  I actually spent most of the day Sunday watching movies and hanging out with Kenny.  I watched Shutter Island, Percy Jackson and the Olympians and Prince of Persia (yum!).  Yes, I was being lazy and unmotivated.  Yes, there are a lot of things I could have been doing that were more productive toward my goals.  But I didn't.  I allowed myself to get lost in the escapism of the movies, just thinking and watching and experiencing the stories through that open window we call the screen.  I was actually really sorry to have Shutter Island end because it was so compelling and interesting, the time period and scenery were unbelievable.  I'm still trying to figure out what actually happened at the end.  It really did me some good to allow the pressure I put myself under to ease a bit, to not be anything other than a spectator.  It helped to hit the reset button.

Last week was not great.  Kenny sick, we fell behind on school work, didn't get hardly anything done I wanted to get done, child support did not come again, focus on my weight goals waned in and out and I got really frustrated.  And all along side of that I'm still crunching ideas around in my brain for a way to make a business that stands out.

The good news is I seem to be getting a lump of back owed child support.  I won't hold my breath for next week, I'll just have to be careful with what I have for now.  I'm thankful it came because Kenny has out grown the sneakers I bought him with the weigh in money I won in the spring.  It's getting cold out there and flip flops just aren't going to cut it much longer.  I also think I hit upon a good business angle which I won't go into right now.  I want to keep smoothing it out and working the reality into my ever so high ideals.  It is a somewhat major shifting of gears but I think it'll be more lucrative than the way I was going at it before. 

I also took a break from educational reading and business enlightenment and sank my teeth (pun intended) into Salem's Lot by Stephen King.  Love me some Stephen King.  Why?  Because he gets inside your head and stays there.  I read It in the 7th grade and to this day I won't walk over a storm drain if I can help it.  They all float down there.  Freakin clowns.  King is just a fantastic story teller.  I will have to make sure I rent the movie from Netflix.  Vanessa and I tried to watch it many times when we were in high school but we could never get past the part where the vampire kid is floating outside the window.  lol  They usually screw up Stephen King books when they make them into movies but I want to see it anyway.  I get really attached to his characters and I want to see how they are portrayed in the movie, who plays them.   

I guess now I just keep plugging away.  Keep on chugging until some of these crazy ideas if mine become habit and bigger, better things happen all the time.  I've had more than my share of trials and I'm fed up quite frankly.  I want a better way and a life that I wake up looking forward to, not one I have to talk myself into dealing with.  So keep your fingers crossed for me and don't forget to leave a comment on last Thursdays blog telling me what your favorite fall scent is and what it reminds you of.  It puts you in the running for a free Merlot soy candle from Pour Daddy's.

Happy Hump Day, Everyone!

Sara Smile